Discovering yourself is a cursed blessing. - Anonymous  

You go through life questioning yourself if you're not content with yourself, and it's a hell if you're not content with yourself

People will try shoving their "I'm okay with ... I'm not okay with ..." down your throat, wanting to make you like-minded, think like them. Prejudice is a real good example of that, so is being a zealot and hating a person for being "unacceptable" to what they're supposed to be used to. Some people just go too far, y'know? They hurt people without a care what they're doing is wrong, because they don't think they're actually doing anything wrong! That's messed up

And when you have people shoving their "I'm okay with ... I'm not okay with ..." into your life, you get confused, angry, and you also get a headache in trying to figure out if you are actually okay with and not okay with what they're okay with and not okay with. It makes you feel so conflicted about everything, doesn't it? 

Were you born into something? Were or are you apart a family that had been a certain way for so long, you felt you had to be that way too? I always felt conflicted with my religion, because it clashed a lot of times with my personal beliefs. Love is love as long as it isn't necrophilia, pedophilia, or beastiality, there are things in this world we can't explain, a person can find light in the dark if they tried, and a lot more similar things. I always felt I was wired wrong when I was okay with something that people would normally take a long time to be okay with. When you're born into something, it feels like you didn't have a say, and sometimes, you feel like you have to be the same way your family is because that's just how it is. I was born into being Christian, but later on in life Indecided to give it a try on my own terms. Now? I believe in the third power, the human power. Because that's what I'm okay with

It's a blessing finding out who you are, what you're okay with and not okay with, because then you feel content, courageous, and confident in yourself. Good Cs to have. Even if someone else is upset with who you are, at least you can say now you don't run the risk of being someone you know you won't ever be. It's also a curse, discovering yourself, in that you lose that meager identity you made back in your childhood 

That's why it's called a "cursed blessing". Found, lost, discovered. You found yourself an identity as a kid, lost it after something changing happens, and then you discover yourself ...